Good afternoon and Happy Monday!
Whether you are reading this post in your inbox or on my website, I hope my post finds you well! I am so excited to share that I completed my 8 week cross training challenge with Scorch, and also just finished my body composition testing with Dr. Reena Newton at Get2Knowyourbody! I am perfecting that post with Dr. Newton (making sure I have all data explained correctly) and will share it with you soon!
I have been wanting to post something about this for a couple of weeks, but trying to find the best way to phase it, the best way to even bring it up.
Guys: deciding to move to a new city, buy a house, plan a wedding and buy a fitness studio all in the same year may not have been the best idea. Don’t get me wrong: I am basically the luckiest girl in the world, and I feel like I’m getting everything I’ve ever wanted ALL AT ONCE. But that’s the problem… It’s all at once! I haven’t had the chance to savor any of these transitions or really even reflect on what is going on around me because it’s just been SO much change all at once. All I’ve felt lately is overwhelmed and homesick for Chapel Hill.. and the life I used to have just 9 months ago. And I feel so guilty for feeling this way.
There it is. I said it. And I feel better already for sharing this with you. I am 5 weeks away from my wedding and struggling to be able to fall asleep at night. My hair has started thinning, I found myself losing weight and out of nowhere (in a yoga class) I popped something in my shoulder and I think I may have strained or pulled something in my rotator cuff. I know the signs of anxiety and stress.. but unless you are looking for it; sometimes you don’t realize it until it’s ridiculously obvious.
This is not how I want to feel just 5 weeks out from the big day, and it’s not how I want to feel any day of my life. I’ve decided to pause my cross training challenge, and begin again with my second fitness format in a few weeks. I think a couple mornings sleeping in past 6:30AM will do me some good, and maybe a couple of extra puppy cuddles with Indy. I want my blog to be about both Fitness and Wellness in pursuit of foraging a healthy and happy lifestyle. I also want to be very honest with you, and honest with myself.
I know that I never want to feel this drained and exhausted ever again, nor do I want it for friends nor family. I’m currently researching all of the best methods of self-care I can find: yoga and meditation, Aryuveda practices, and Hygge. I will share with you what I try, and what works for me. I also plan to take my experience and put together a toolkit for “brides to be”. I’d like to eventually make a curriculum and training plan for anyone getting ready for their “big day” or any other special events and help them feel not only confident with how their dress fits, but also feel energized and confident as they take on all that is a part of wedding/ special event planning.
SO: if you are feeling stressed out, anxious, alone, overwhelmed or all of the above: know that you are not alone. Do not feel guilty for carving some time out for yourself, and don’t be afraid to ask for help. I trust that all of you totally understand my need to take a mini break from my fitness challenge. I’ll pick back up in a month, and I’ll post results from Scorch later this week guaranteed!
Thank YOU for your constant support. Comment below! What do you do to take care of yourself?